I actually won on i bet 4D.. So comical.. I bought de numbers cos Sally, Joe, Jenny flew from Adelaide & stay here.. Den I thot juz buy abit for fun.. -_-"" I din expect myself to win.. 3rd prize sm more.. Not a huge amount but it's de thrill ba.. Hohohoho.. Baby is comin home early.. I'm so happy.. >.< Maybe in 2wks time..

I'm in de midst of cryin so badly that my vision is blurred.. I'm hoppin 4miracle call or an sms.. But I havent.. My heart juz kept sankin deeper & deeper.. Faced so much stress lately..

Refused to pick my calls & totally shut me out without givin me a single clue of knowin wat's sortin out refers to.. Family askin certain questions non stop.. Protectin sm1's feelin yet I got notg but a "Fuck u".. Cash flow.. Lawyer letter again.. Work..

Juz wen I decided to pick myself up 2days ago, all these came thumblin down on me.. Wat's worse, I broke down infront of my student's M~U~M 2day.. I claim tt smtg happened in my family & I gotta end early.. I'm so tired my whole head is empty.. I'm not hungry at all today..

But I gotta go back to my students' work.. Later mayb play MJ at 3am.. I dun wanna let myself haf any time 2tink.. I cant tink anymore.. Sm1 take my brain away.. Pls.. Juz take my head off my neck by force..

放下今天手头上所有的工作，到海边轻轻松松的玩一天，调整最近低沉的情绪。
我们四个人今天我会让自己过得很开心。

P/S: My fren.. Thx 4takin my shit when I throw tantrum tis days.. I knw u dun feel good even thou u juz keep quiet whenever I do that.. I'm sorry.. I'll tame myself down.. Thx for bein so patient..

前阵子，我充满热诚，最近有点象火被水熄灭的感觉。
真的该坚持我“有教无类”的心态吗？
还是应该听每个人的话，向现实低头，做个不快乐的人？
我忽然迷失了方向，遗失了自己原有的自信。

Am in Perth now.. No bb's hug 2keep me warm 2nite.. It's 8'C here, brrr.. Cold but I'm stil likin it.. I miss Bb, I miss Adelaide, I miss de Taiwan family.. Mm.. Gotta come back & work.. Bb say she dun wan me 2buy her a laptop, so mayb I'll buy her a Nintendo wii.. I love 2see bb smile.. I miss her lah.. Cant slp 2nite..

P/S: Bb.. Jia u.. U can graduate & come back in August.. I love ya.. Muacks.. >.<

Had a great time in Adelaide with Bb.. Juz came back from diner with Priscilla & family.. 3days ago went casino w bb.. We were playin 3card poker.. She saw 2 6s den she close card.. I told her it'll be triple 6.. Den she gave me a -_- den de 1st person got 6, she was like no chance liao lah tt guy got a 6.. I was like 1deck of cards haf 4 sixs.. True enough.. She got a triple 6 & as usual she's so shock she blush.. Haha.. So cute lah.. Thou there're time we aint happy, but there are time we're so happy 2gether.. I stil hope I can spend de rest of my life with bb..

She let de cat outta de bag ever since I came 2Adelaide, I juz din wanna embarass her.. Haha.. She's comin back end of August instead of Nov.. Haha.. I'm so happy lah.. We can finally not be apart for 1800000 miles.. She's shiftin in to stay w Yuki & Keffi after her exam in 2wks time.. I stil love the TWF (Taiwan family) esp Yuki.. I can juz tell her anytg under de sun cos we do see de same point most of the time.. Same preception abt life.. Keffi too but she's pretty quiet at times.. Watever it is, if next yr bb is comin back for TWF graduation, I'll come back with her if she allow me too.. Cos they haf become my frens too..

P/S: Xing, Sally & Joe is transitin in Singapore on 26th June b4 they fly back to Taiwan, they'll stay w me & I'll brin them for chillie crab..