Baby不在我身边的第一百三十五天

My days sux yday.. Terrible mood throughout de day, had 1session of tuition den went out for diner.. Took a walk in de cold storage.. Pretty fun walkin ard not spendin a single cent.. Well.. I did spend $1.95, gettin my clam chowder soup for 2nite diner.. Juz feel like drinkin soup 2nite & notg else.. My lungs stil aint good.. 1st tg pple ask wen I said I haf bronchitis is "U've been smokin?!!" I would be like "Wat de fuck? R u crazy? Wen was de last time u see me smoke?"

Finish my last pill 2day, de medicine is so strong it causes me gastric every single time I eat it.. I dehydrates like hell also.. De only tg is I used my determination not 2touch any cold water, or any food tt's not meant for MY consumption.. I'm juz afraid I cant get well by Christmas, cos one of de website says it may take up to few months to fully recover.. I dun wan it to effect my HK trip..

2wards de evenin, my leg hurts like fuck.. I couldnt exert 2much pressure on my "ex" fractured leg.. Wat a wk rite? Worse day of de wk I could haf.. Tryin 2climb down de stairs juz nw 2realise tt I cant exert any force on my right leg.. I merely threw a little tantrum but I din kick my leg or anytg.. Hopefully wen I wake up at 9am for my drivin later, I can move it.. I dun care wat 2mrw would b like.. I'm so exhausted 2day.. Time 4bed, if nt cant wake up for drivin alr.. Gd nite pple.. Gd nite horrible day.. A fresh start 2mrw.. A fresh mind.. A fresh new day..

Would anyone love me for who I am?

FeL FeL

Baby不在我身边的第一百三十三天

Stil coughin but mm.. Ok lah.. Tryin v hard 2get well.. I juz added Tang Xin Feng Bao II Jia Hao Yue Yuan main theme in.. Those tt say nice rite? Listen ba.. It's by Guan Ju Ying as usual.. She's stil soooo bitchy in de show.. Feel like throwin punches at her lah.. Aiyo.. Tink "Hao & Qiu" is stil de golden couple.. Will they be 2gether? I duno also.. Cos I'm on episode 19th now.. Hehe..

P/S: Bb.. I miss u wor.. Everyday also miss.. Everytime I open my eyes.. Everytime my heart beats too.. *blush*

De word "smoke" triggered sm old memories..

Remember back in my Secondary school days, I used to join Andy Lau's club.. LOL.. Yes, a fan club.. He told us to go around town askin pple 2quit smokin.. And I happily went along, did wat we were suppose 2do & had a bday celebration with him in our own club place, tink was Canto or smtg.. Those were de days.. Crazy but fun..

Den wen I became 21, I pick up smokin myself.. But fortunately only for a short while.. Thx to Alec persistent.. I guess his healthy image of not smokin, smells gd & clean breathe pretty much attracted me.. ONLY BACK DEN OK.. *Ouch* But after Alec, all my ex's be it men or women all smoke.. LOL.. I rem really resist kissin Thomas wenever he smokes.. So much quarrels & eventually we dun behave like couple anymore, more like frens aft a while..

My ex gf's were even heavier smokers den my ex bfs.. I used to ask if my exs would gif up smokin cos of me, I guess I cant even be compared to a non livin tg.. Den again, kinda arguement which I'm so sick of, so I gave up askin anyone to do so aft tt.. LOL.. Why shld I "zi bian shen jia".. It's their choice & their freedom to do wat they like..

Headache again.. Had a weird dream last nite of sm1 tellin me I'm gonna die soon.. I beta go slp before drivin at 4pm & stop tinkin abt tis crazy tg.. Wen it's time to die, die.. For now, I can only be happy.. Yeah?

P/S: I always feel tt my dad really love my mum, he gave up 10yrs of smokin for her.. Tt's why he earned de respect tt he haf.. He did wat he promised.. Cool man yeah.. =)

Baby不在我身边的第一百三十天

Baby keep sayin she misses me 2day.. >.< Make me feel so much beta.. Is love & care really de best medicine for sickness? LOL.. I haf de care from family+frens & love from my baby, I feel so much beta 2day.. I'm tryin v hard to get well.. Leadin a pretty healthy lifestyle for past 4days, ate congee with scallop & veggie den haf plenty of water.. Finally my weighin scale is pointin to below 75kg, 5more kg to go to my target for tis year.. Tink I can make it if I continue to eat so healthily.. Haha..

P/S: Thx everyone who wished me well.. I will get well.. Soon I hope.. Nv been so sick in my entire life, sendin like 8pills into my mouth every 6-8hrs.. Phoof.. In de middle of de nite, I'd b breatheless, damn xin ku... Sigh..

1. I'm havin Bronchitis..
2. My baby sis is de sweetest 2day..
3. I miss my bao bei..

Baby不在我身边的第一百二十六天

Went to see doctor for my 2days old fever.. Doctor Chew say it's virus, he cant gimme any antibiotics cos my stomach alr v weak.. Need my immune system to fight it.. Wat a joke rite? My immune system haf always been damn weak.. He said if by Sunday, my fever stil up & down beta do a blood test.. Felt kinda pathetic last nite.. I was tremblin like shit last nite again.. Fever shot till v high, felt so cold but din dare 2cover blanket.. Stayed in de toilet for 15min 2puke.. Din dare 2make much noise, scared I wake them up.. Not exaggeratin, felt like I'm gonna die last nite cos I've nv felt tis sick b4..

Was so piss with ah yi for shoutin at me 2day.. Sigh.. But wen I reflected, I knw.. She cares.. She scold finish alr stil cook me porridge.. Nobody even offered to brin me ice 4my fever, not 2say cook 4me.. I mayb piss & say angry words but I knw deep inside her mouth is poisonous, but she cares frm de inside.. Cos des no way any1 can pretend tt.. She'd come down & check if I'm stil hafin fever.. Tt's for de 1st time tis few days sm1 do come & check on me.. Sigh..

Bb is understandin me more & more.. She pointed out tt I cry wen my mens is comin.. She used 2get impatient & get pissed w me, but she din 2day.. I guess de I'm sick & mens make me esp weak tis few days.. Cant wait for HK w Bb.. Cant wait..

Baby不在我身边的第一百二十三天

Happy birthday to my BB.. Hope yr day is smooth from now on.. >.< And our HK trip is comin our way alr.. Hehe..

Chiong 10episode of Tang Xin Feng Bao last nite with Ah yi, Ju & Emerlyn.. So funny lah tt show.. Aiyo.. De xiao ma is stil as irritatin but comical tis time.. LOL.. Wish Est was hm 2watch w us..

Baby不在我身边的第一百十七天

Horoscope - October 14th:
Problems in your relationship could be caused by doubts creeping into your mind today. On the work front, avoid intolerance and hastiness as you could cause yourself some complications. Tip: allow yourself an artistic interest.

• Went Geylang on Sat nite.. So delicious.. 5of us eat like $80.. Gave Emerlyn $60 for her bday, she was so shock I had to laugh..
• Had a nice diner 2day.. Real good one.. Enjoyed myself..

自视过高也许就是我的毛病。

溺毙。

Run in opposite direction if u see me 2day..

• COS I'LL FUCKIN EAT U UP..

• AND I FUCKIN MEAN IT..

Baby不在我身边的第一百十四天

Life cannot be any beta.. LOL..

In a superb mood..

• PSLE is over..
• HK trip w BB is settled..

Went to watch "Connected".. It's a damn good show to me..

I was startled by it a couple of times.. Juz good lah..

De nicest HK show I watched tis year.. >.<

And I like "Da S"..

Woke bb up for work a while ago.. Called me back on her way to work.. She's so sweet, tgs tt she said over de phone make me feel sooooo.. >.< Wish I was der to hug her.. Hug her tightly.. Make all de bad tgs away esp tgs in her work.. But I cant.. I couldnt ask much also cos she doesnt normally say.. De only tg I could do now is to make our trip a really really good one.. Least haf everytg booked & no hiccups like no rooms wen we get der kinda tg..

I kp goin in & out of my slp cos I keep jumpin up 2check de time in case she couldnt wake up.. Now I gotta slp.. Another long day tt starts at 11am.. All de way till probably 10pm..

Baby不在我身边的第一百零八天

Exam is crazy.. I hate them.. Been teachin 12-14hrs for a few days already.. So sick of talkin.. But it has to go on till at least Wed.. Bb bday is comin, I'm so tired everyday.. Looks like aft exam, I'm gonna take a day leave & do my stuff.. Cos I stil haf my P3-5 exam.. Mm.. Been a long time since I see more den 1k in my bank.. Haha.. Our HK trip is done preparin.. All de bookins are done except HK hotel.. Tt one haf to wait till Nov accordin to de hotel.. Mm.. Smtg I had worked so hard for is comin true wor.. =)))) Jia u for 2mrw.. Tis wkend is gonna be 15hrs of teachin, 9am til ard 12am..

P/S: Got a call 2day, but when I called back.. No one picked up.. Was a little stun at 1st.. Mayb u remembered tt u stil hate me.. But I hope u'r stil well.. Do take care if u read this..