Had a talk to bb, she too tink tt our life is bland.. Quarrels.. Nothing much to talk about.. I dunno wat to do.. Students exam is finishin.. Can't wait to leave for China with everyone.. Shld be a fun trip.. I juz organized de itinary.. Hope it'll be great fun.. *wink*

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You Lyrics

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heartso much misery
I will not break the way you did you fell so hard
I've learned the hard wayto never let it get that far

Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to playon the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid....

I lose my way & it's not to long before you point it out
I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every dayof my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to playon the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me
You never thoughtof anyone else you just saw your pain
And now I cry inthe middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learnt to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't knowhow to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid.... Because Of you....

Let Me Be The One - Jimmy Bondoc

Somebody told me u were leavin I didn’t know
Somebody told me u’re unhappy but it doesn’t show
Somebody told me that u don’t want me no more
So u’re walkin’ out the door

Nobody told me u’ve been cryin every night
Nobody told me u’d been dyin but didn’t want to fight
Nobody told me that u fell out of love from me
So I’m settin’ you free

Let me be the one to break it up so u won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where someone wins & someone loses
We just have to say our love was true but has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love u one last time & goodbye

Somebody told me u still loved me I don’t know why
Nobody told me that u only u needed time to fly
Somebody told me that u want to come back when
Our love is real again

Let me be the one to break it up so you won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where someone wins & someone loses
We just have to say our love was true but has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time & goodbye

Just turn around and walk away u don’t have to live like this
But if u love me still then stay don’t keep me waiting for that final kiss
We can work together through this test or we can work through it apart
I just need to get this off my chest that u will always have my heart

Let me be the one to break it up so u won’t have to make excuses

We don’t need to find a set up where someone wins & someone loses

We just have to say our love was true but has now become a lie

So I’m tellin’ u I love u one last time & goodbye

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNH_3l0mAo4&feature=related

Tis MTV of L word touched me.. Alot of pple will like it.. Listen to it if u're free.. I can't find tis song, so anyone has it.. PLS.. Send it to me.. I only have it in my imeem list but not de song itself.. Sigh..


P/S: De song is "Let me be the one" by "Jimmy Bondoc"

My birthday gift from bb, one of my fav brand "And1"

I had yet another surprise party attack last night which I totally didn't expect.. I went back to baby's house after she fetched me from daniel's place.. I opened de room door & stood der for a sec lookin into her bro's room.. My cousins were abt 2sing, den they paused wen I din turn.. Den I do turn, I jumped.. My heart almost jumped out.. I saw Sam, Steph, TJ, Eunice.. Would nv have imagined that they'd be der.. Swept me off my feet & 2b honest, I was really touched.. Baby had helped them 2surprise me over de past 2days.. So it's like she celebrated my bday continuously for 3days.. Cooked my favourite food for me, all cheesy.. Everyone says that her cookin is good.. I totally agree.. Baby.. Thx for makin my birthday so wonderful..

It's my birthday today.. Thx for everything everyone had done.. Didi was so cute, he tried so hard to draw my Jeniffer Beals on my birthday card.. Baby drew a really really cool card for me.. Designed it so nicely.. Thx baby.. I know how much u did for me.. I'm sorry I was so bad at PLAY that day.. Really sorry..

Est & Ju came to surprise me when baby picked me from work.. I sorta guess from de excited look on baby's face.. Hahahahahaha....... She gave me a real romantic surprise near my student's place.. Haha.. Never had anyone who did that for me.. I really felt so touched thou I didn't show it at all..

Anyone who is readin tis blog.. Watch "PS I love u".. It has tis v positive impact on me.. De startin part caught me by surprise, my tears rolled down without myself even realisin it.. My gosh.. I was really shock when I felt my tears.. This sentence which I concluded from the show kept ringin in my head.. "The past is juz a chapter in our life, every step we take is a new chapter.." Yeah.. It's like I see a light, I fully understand wat tat means.. I'll never look back again cos I've alr open a new chapter in my life..

P/S: I'm havin pretty much of sex lately, have I become a sex addict? *wink*

I had a really wild night yday.. Enjoyed myself so much.. Feel like I let go of all de stressful stuff accumulated since Chinese New Year started.. I feel so different yday, be it inside or outside.. Anyway, thanks to everyone who said I look great last night.. I really.. really.. really.. appreciate that.. Haha.. I'll work harder on it..

L word Episode 6.. Gosh.. Swept me off my feet.. Tina is so fuckin sexy.. I mean REALLY.. She's so attractive.. Phoof..

A stranger walked up to me, looked deep into my eyes.. She said gently "I really like u".. Paused for 5seconds without taking her eyes away & gave me a really gentle yet sensation kiss on my lips..

Mm.. That was a dream I had last night.. It didn't go any further but I really like the feelin which is still lingering in the air.. My cousin was wondering what's so nice about it.. But many people knows that I really love kissing above all.. It's one of the most important thing in my life.. I just have a thing for the soft & gentle lips of women.. LOL..

I issued a death cert for my computer at home.. It refused to work.. Sad.. Well.. Hope I manage to get a laptop tomorrow man.. I'm a computer addict & I dun deny that anymore.. Shall go back to my L word, relax a little.. It's gonna be a fuckin busy day for me tomorrow..

P/S: My resolution for this year is to lose 15kg so that I can take my studio picture by July..

Grandma was discharged this morning, but she went back in the hospital 1/2day later.. She's not feeling well again.. Sigh.. So poor thing, she can't be with her grandchildren during this festive season.. There was tears in my eyes, but I didn't wanna let it flow out cos they say it'll make me cry whole year round if I cry during the new year.. Sounds ridiculous but I dun wan anything to happen to grandma so I held back.. So not me isn't it? I always let my tears run freely, be it watching a movie or anything.. I'm not afriad of making a fool of myself when I cry but anything to do with grandma or people dearest to me, I rather not do it.. I hope grandma will see sunshine after the rain.. I would rather take the pain for her & let her be healthy again.. The last time I said this I broke my leg in Oct when grandma fell & got all bruised, vomited blood & was hospitalized for a wk.. Be it coincident, I really din mind that cos she really got well after that.. I juz wan her to be well again.. Really get well again.. Sniff.. Tears welled up in my eyes again, I'll juz stop writing here.. Have a good new year everyone.. Be healthy & well.. >.<

New Year.. Nothing much is happening.. Hope my darling grandma can come home 2day den I'll play mahjong with her if she's ok.. Hopefully.. It was juz a month ago when she was last hospitalized.. Ah Yi sent her in earlier this time in case it ends up as bad as Dec.. Her bruises are gone thou.. Sigh.. I'm looking forward to our China trip in less then a month time.. Happy New Year everyone..

Ah po can't join us for reunion diner tonight.. She's hospitalized.. Sigh..

I'm so into Bette all over again.. Tis time it includes Tina.. So sexy both of them.. Older women are so sexy..

Someone commented a few days ago.. I'm un-tame-able.. And I find it so funny that day I juz can't stop laughin.. Am I? Yeah.. I am..