I was fumin earlier on cos I was being questioned.. Haf I over-reacted? Mayb I had forgotten tat I'm attach & I'm oblige to answer questions when I'm being asked.. I'm oblige to.. I was given too much freedom in de past I guess.. Did I...? I dunno.. I wanna maple.. Promise Tricia to level for her today.. Later shall nap.. Steph is hospitalize.. Tsk.. Doin a blood test, hope all is fine.. De pills make my lips damn dry.. Shit.. Damn pain.. Fuck.. Fuck.. Fuck.. Grrrrrr..

I love u dear & I wan de whole world to knw.. Thx 4bein here when u hear tt I'm sick.. Thx 4bein so sweet.. I'm happy Marilyn actually say my dear is nice.. Hehe.. I thot she'd say smtg I dun wanna hear.. Cos she had nv like my ex.. Phew.. Nw we can all go out 2gether leh..

I came clean w Trina 2days ago tt I'm with sm1 else.. Wanted 2b honest as much as I could.. De 1st step I took all these years.. She started being sarcastic..
Sigh.. Keep hafin friction for past few days w dear.. Makes me wonder again.. Smtg tt made me refuse to start another r/ship b4 was de need 2learn new things again, everytg is back to zero, haf to slowly build tgs up, haf to start 2get 2knw another person all over again.. Kinda tirin as every1 knw how lazy I am.. Nvm.. Will try harder ba.. Cos I love dear..

I've finally ask de question.. And.. We're attach.. I'm attach again after so long of singlehood.. Mm.. On National Day.. Haha.. So funny.. Lean on the sofa & slp again.. Yawn.. Gonna teach now.. Damn tired..

Damn stomach is killin me.. Bad day.. I'm so slpy lately no matter how much I slp.. 5hrs used to be enough but now like dun work anymore.. Fucked up.. Tink it's seriously cos I'm gettin old.. Watever.. Shall go maple..

Went liquid room yday, was plannin to go Zouk one.. Sigh.. Lorraine, Kat, Est, Shan & ACG was der.. I like the music thou & it was a cosy nite out thou I'm abit tired.. So funny.. All nite long I juz feel like huggin dear, but Lorraine was beside us.. Dear say she dun like PDA.. Mm.. Do I? Let me tink.. >.< To me, I'm juz the kind who does wat I like, as & when I like.. Dun really care wat others tink.. Unless it's my students' parent? Haha..

Den today, was out w Ps & Kat.. Went to catch a show *weddin crasher*.. Was quite borin sia.. Except for the kitty Kat part.. So funny.. Dear seem to get along well with my frens & my family.. I'm so happy..

The only thing I can rem at liquid room was I grab hold of dear when Lorraine challenge her to go hug sm caucasian.. I've no idea why I did that, it was such a natural reaction.. Mm.. Suddenly, I've tis overwhelmin feelin that I'm really afraid.. The feelin is so scary.. I feel so unstable.. I cant hold myself back anymore & I've crossed the line which I wasnt suppose to.. I'm madly in love, I keep tellin myself not to cross the line & yet I found myself 1000000km away frm the line I set..

Tis kinda of feelin always make me feel insecure.. Afraid of losin sm1 1day.. See lah.. That's the problem with crossin the line.. I'm so afriad it'd be another failed r/ship like the one I hung on to for 4years.. What am I gonna do now?? I dunno anymore.. I love u dear.. So much.. *muackz*

Der was a weird stab aft readin dear's blog.. If.. If I had needed a companion, I would haf look for one.. I would haf juz accepted anyone who's in my life.. All tis while, I thot work would be enough & I'm happy workin my whole day off.. Enough to keep me goin.. But now.. I knw I've u.. I'm not good at expressin myself & it had became a habit to be sad for so long.. Now, I'm smilin when I teach.. I'm smilin when I'm usin the com.. I'm smilin when u came into my mind.. I'm smilin.. Cos I really love u..

Sorta got drench in the rain.. Today was extremely soothin mornin.. Rained heavily.. Split seconds, I thot I was on Effiel tower.. Gosh.. How much I miss the place.. So romantic, so dreamy.. Sigh.. Love it!! Stupid PS cancel our pool session, my hand itch den u like tt.. Pig!! Woke up at Kat's place & had pizza.. She's sooooo sweet, always make breakfast.. Finally we got sm decent slp, she's been studyin for past few days & I've been maplin.. Finally level 35 liao.. Piang.. Took so long man.. Mm.. Gonna continue enjoy the breeze.. Hope it doesnt stop rainin so soon..

Mm.. Sm questions last nite sets me wonderin.. Was me or my exs too open in the past? Or was my exs always the one who take initiative? So that make me dunno how to behave when I'm on my own? Or was it that everytg is too fresh? Or was it I'm too afraid that doin smtg wrong everytg wil collasps? Aiyo......... So many questions.. Lazy to think.. Mm.. I did learn smtg new, that is to haf diff phrases.. *smilez* It's interestin, cos I nv knew it all tis 27th yrs..

我慢慢睁开眼睛，
天已渐渐亮起，
我心深处思念着一个人。
用情至深是你给我的印象。
你给我的爱让我惊慌失措。
不知不觉爱上了你，
希望我不会让你失望。