I'm in love.. *wink* Got swept off my feet finally.. Hehe.. Yawn.. Super tired.. thx for bein so nice to me Kat.. See ya later.. >.< I go maple a while.. *muackz*

就是我想你 - Zhang Hui Mei

太阳在笑 空气里面也充满了回忆
闭上了眼睛想象你把爱藏在这里
我数着心跳 拋开烦恼画面立即好远
睁开眼 的视野 竟发现 奇妙的感觉

Baby baby 就是我想你 表演开始变甜蜜
这种感觉 谁也说不清 就是我想你
如果你也能感应所有距离一瞬间就拉近
连笑都有型不知不觉甜到了心底
隔着零点零一毫米的差距瞇着眼睛就想起你
意外的就 听见 心跳传到 耳里 像是触电惊喜 就是我想你
兴奋指数不能停所有细胞竟然也跟着你
一起想你 也一起爱你如果想象是真的
不论在哪里 我都会 边唱 边想着你

Other den slpy wat can I say? Mm.. Watched Green Mile at Kat's hse last nite.. That S.O.B is so irritatin, nv fail to make me clench my fist each time I watch it.. Used to haf blog songs, so long nv put alr.. Thx to auntie Kat, she gao ding for me.. Muack sweetie.. Missin ya.. >.< We'll be clubbin at Zouk 2nite with my darLin sis Esther.. Goshhhh.. Love my sis sooooo much.. She's sooo cute, sooo ke ai, sooo humourous.. Juz like her da jie.. *wink*

So tired today.. I was slpin in the room when Tri was watchin NKF outside.. She came into the room & bite me hard on the neck.. *sensitive* No smell of ciggi that I hate.. Would be a turn off to me since I love kissin so much.. But den I juz slpt like slpin beauty.. So damn tired.. When I woke up was stil v tired.. Goodness, walk & slp kind, kept dozin off.. Tri's mum called me askin where she was, den blasted over de phone sayin she waited for a long time.. *Opps* Aft tt, Rita call me say Tri cuttin her hair at her salon.. Stil bluff me say cut her hair wrongly.. Piang.. Whole day in a daze, eyes keep closin.. Den steph call askin me go teach her, juz came back only.. Tired like siao.. Den Auntie Kat bully me, ask me not to read her blog.. Sniff.. Big bully..

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我 内心的挣扎，
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欢 乐只愿长伴你身边，
你 一定要快乐…一辈子。

U said u like me alot.. Sets me thinkin.. Will I hurt u? Will I hurt u by missin u at tis v second? Am I gonna be a disaster to pple once again? Sigh.. Dun wanna tink.. Hurt my brain cells.. Yawn.. Slpy slpy.. Only slpt 2.5hrs yday.. Watched 50 1st date & Shao Nian Ah Hu til like 3am, den roll here roll der, chat til 5.30am.. Die liao.. So tired.. Hehe..

I'm home finally.. Been stayin at Kat's hse since Thurs.. Watchin VCD den Fri nite I slpt immediately aft bathin, was tired like hell.. She was nice, cook me breakfast in the mornin b4 I went to teach.. But she had a hard time wakin me up.. Haha..
Sat mornin I woke up like 9am, den was like.. Mm.. Shld go buy big breakfast for her since I used so much water to bath & toilet den ate her breakfast.. LOL..

Sat nite went Zpop.. Maia RoX!!! She's so cute.. I like the 2chinese songs she sang.. Countin for 3rd Aug to come.. Hehe.. Had an enjoyable nite.. Der was Emerlyn, Amelia, Est, ShanShan, Josephine, Lorraine, Shu Ping & Kat.. When ah-mei came out, I screamed............... She rox esp her Na Lu Wan Qing Ge.. Wow Ohhh.. No image alr, dun care lah.. Maia & A-Mei Rox..
Smtg keeps goin in my mind.. But I shall go back to Maple liao.. 2mrw teachin early again.. Sigh..

I was at Kat house watchin Stripes & Phantom of the opera & til like 4.30am.. Slpt only 2hrs.. Yawn.. Zann sms askin where I was last nite.. I din reply.. She ask again askin who I'm with.. It kinda got on my nerve.. Is it cos Tri gave me too much freedom with the no status r/ship until I became like tat? I dun like it, havin to answer to pple, havin to tell pple where & who I'm with.. I'm not oblige to.. Probably tat's why I'm stil w Tri, cos she's de only one who gave me so much space til now.. I changed over tis years.. At tis point of time, I dun wish to settle down anymore.. Yawn.. Stil feel so tired.. Go take a rest, 2mrw is zpop concert wor.. Maia!! Ah-Mei!! U both rox!!

Receive a mail from Maia!! Only realise it tis mornin tt de mail came in b4 I send it out to her tellin her I'll see her at zpop tis sat (Thx to Terence).. When I saw her mail, my heart almost jump out sia.. Stupid lah.. Sm1 so old stil idolise pple rite? I dun care man.. I love Maia!!! U rox!! Dun worry, yr secret will be safe w me sia.. >.<

Yday, Kat did a sweet thing.. She bought bubble tea frm near Rebecca hse store & po pia den walk over to Rebecca void deck to pass it to me.. Lucky I got tt, tahan me for the whole day.. Teach til like 11.20pm.. Wanted to blog also lazy..
Mm.. Excellent day to slp 2day.. But I woke up at 8.30am 2day, slightly later den usual to teach John, the boy who always pierce his pen into my mole on my right hand.. He's so cute cos he's a eurasian.. But den.. Aiyo.. Pokin yr tutor hand isnt a nice thing..

Came back ard 10.20am, den watch TV a while.. After tt, nap as usual lor.. Woke up like 1.05pm cos Dar called me like 11times.. Finally I pick.. Ask her hold on I pick another line (Kat) she angry wor, cut the line.. I juz rush to bath cos I was late alr den her sms came in.. So fierce sm more.. But I'm surprise she actually put in effort to try to wake me 2day.. Aft tt, she ask if I wanna haf lunch w her but I cant.. Ask me cancel I said cant also.. DEN shaun sms me say he's not in time to come hm, so cancel tuition.. So off I went to buy her bubble tea for her & her Tricia.. After tt we went MacPerson for lunch.. She pick me at heartland mall den we headed der..

She like my hair!! Hehe.. Phew.. So scared she'd say v ugly.. End up she also wan Rita to cut her hair.. She was sweet 2day.. Was huggin me & held my hands & I got a shock.. Den went back Dar place to slp.. Plan to take a nap but was so cosy tat we both fall aslp.. Only went for AMK tuition, wat de hell.. Make me so piss again.. Put soap outside my bbt cup.. Idiot.. My mum is naggin again.. Sayin tt I'm a failure.. Constantly remindin me.. Makes me lose confident.. Sian.. Dun wanna stay home.. Sigh..

Open the door & I saw my mum, den she commented with my hair.. Grr.. I feel like going out again.. But dar nv call me, so I guess I've to stay at hm & tolerate it.. Or Zann.. Wanna take me in for 1day? Haha.. Slpt only 1hr 50min yday & I was out runnin ard lookin for SyL 30min ago.. Sigh.. Is it so hard to wait a while? I nv say I'm not comin out.. Ran ard like a mad woman & to know tat u've left.. U made me so worried.. Why do u like to walk away like tt? I care if u realise.. So piss I call my dearest auntie Kat, she ask me to go hm.. Den wen hang up de call, I puke.. Tink I'm too tired..

Had a fun day with my cousins yday in town, had pasta mania, est, steph & me finish one bottle of cheese.. Missed East Coast Italian restaurant by the beach.. Nice atmosphere.. Shall spend a wkend der if I can find time.. Quite a chaotic nite, Amelia was so unlucky.. Got molested, knock her head on lift, knock her hand on cab, smtg else I cant rem.. Juz not her day.. Poor gal.. But I love u!! 4get abt wat happen ok? I'll be here if u stil haf any *secret* u dun wan yr mum to knw.. I'll help u solve yr problems if u haf any ok? Try not to mix w those ah lian anymore.. Can be frens, but try ok..

Went to watch *fantastic 4*.. I like the show.. So cute, de gal is so so so pretty!! Had a superb wk.. Juz tt I'm super duper tired.. Kat ask me to tok abt her.. Mm.. Let me tink.. She's a v funny gal.. A bully, always bully me cos she hates me.. But she sings v.well.. Hehe.. Only laff at her *Nu Er Hong*.. Cannot go any lower liao.. Haha.. My shoulder hurts like mad.. Can any1 massage for me????? >.<

My gosh.. My eyes are red!! And I'm goin down town later.. Came back only like 6plus tis mornin with a bad headache frm the lens.. 2day shall not be vain & wear my glasses.. Met Auntie Kat finally.. Went to Rita to cut my hair in the evenin.. She's like gettin prettier wor.. Alr 29 stil so freakin cute, rarely praise a Malay.. We live like so near yet we nv meet up.. We mentioned Shelley.. Both of us also no contact, she slapped shelley 1yr ago.. -_-"" And Shelley is mad at me since last Sept sayin tt when she1 2meet me, I wasn't der.. But she doesnt understand tt her problems was self created, 4ever wantin 2break w E den cry every wk.. Rita slap her 4wantin 2jump in2 Sg River outside monks & I really cant find time to REPEAT constantly going to her side 4same tgs tt happen every 3days.. Friends around her really feel tired..

Den met Kat at 9pm together w Ju.. Saw her & b4 I reached her, sm1 grab me frm behind.. Got a shock, it's was Olivia.. ^-^ Been a long time since I last saw her.. She's wearin the bloody heels again.. Hate it sia.. Alr so tall stil like tt.. Make me feel like a dwarf.. She's the only gf tt I accept the fact tt she's taller den me.. Aft goin in, she chatted w me & Ju 4a while.. Mentioned tt she noticed me cos I'm always gettin shots.. Haha.. That's how we exchange numbers thou.. LOL.. She was tellin me Tues is her off & we can meet for coffee smtimes.. Mm.. Maybe the national day tt Tues, can meet her for coffee.. Mm.. B4 I left, she said my hair not 2bad.. Hehe.. After that we went Rouge.. The place Kat ah yi dun like.. +_+

We finish 1drink den we left the place.. Trina called b4 tt, told her I was drinkin she like kinda shock.. Anyway, she call juz to ask abt Maple story.. Aiya.. Expected.. Cant be tellin me she misses me.. =o( Den.. Met Kat fren & my little darLin Esther came down, she say my hair stylo juz tt the fringe I gotta style it beta.. Ok lor.. Shall see wat Trina say, but when will I see her? Went KTV & as usual, I sit der to accumulate cobwebs.. Tok to SyL inbtwn & she was like drinkin in Jurong.. Sigh.. Ah gal ah.. Pls take care of yrself ok.. I'm always worried when ur sad.. We are both v v v extreme pple.. LOL..

Anyway, went Swensen aft tt.. Got a hot chocolate!! So fattenin.. Esther lah!! Stil order coffee & gave me a whole lump of wipe cream which I cant resist.. Said so many things & I kept laffin.. Auntie Kat dunno wats a mole.. Mm.. Kat, other den cat u stil knw wat animals? Kiddin lah.. We had a special childhood, seen alot of animals, had alot of *adventure* with them.. LOL..U're a v fun lovin person.. Very cute.. Haha.. Hope u get yr slp liao.. Poor ah yi.. Stil call me & woke me up at 9am.. Nv slp.. Enjoy yr day at yr bro bday k.. Had sweet dreams abt yr mole?? Hahahahaha............... Tis mornin, mummy was touchin my hair, heard her say smtg, I knw she's not happy I color my hair.. sigh.. Nxt few days or rather the whole of nxt week she sure nag abt my hair.. I can jolly well liu lang jie tou until she slp or I go Dar place IF she calls me.. Sigh.. I seriously doubt so..

I'm finally hm.. Felt so bad abt not being able to go watch Butch hunt w SyLSyL.. So busy w work & I'm down w de DAMN FLU.. So irritatin.. Woke up feelin body achin all over.. Done assignment yday 4student til late sia.. Den auntie Kat call & we chatted like frm 12.30am til 6.30am until my battery went flat.. LOL.. She kept analysisin me.. Havent chat on the phone for tat long.. Yawn.. So funny.. We nv even met sia.. Will be meetin on 23rd July if notg happen.. So busy I gotta arrange my schedule like 1mth b4 hand.. 4wkends all fully book until August.. Tupid.. Feel like readin back the history of my blog.. Stopped at 2004 Jun tt time.. Yawn..

Had a little arguement with my mum b4 I went out late last nite.. sigh.. She's always like tt, hate it when I go out aft 1am.. But I stil went ahead with it.. I work long hours, only nite time is my free time & tis wk she's on nite shift.. If I dun meet her, god knws when she'll ask me out again.. Nxt few days she sure MIA..

Dar & me watch tis VCD she rented.. Quite nice.. I wanna buy tis series call *Jing Zhi Yu Nie*, tink it's quite nice.. I like Deng Cui Wen.. Came back after tuition & saw mum.. Heng sia.. She nv scold me & seemed normal.. Somehow I feel kinda down 2day.. But den I wont, cos I still need to gif Ling my support.. Hope she get well soon..

I miss the feelin of being madly in love..

Dar & me waited for Mary jie to finish chattin with Joe den we met.. Mm.. Ard 12.30am ba.. Den we went Hougang blk 401 der to haf supper, had my fav chicken chop.. Den Dar cant finish 1/2 of her food & gave me all.. -_-"" I dun like to waste food so I finish everytg includin the crumbs.. She stil rem she havent watch Initial D w me leh.. Hehe.. So cute..

We chat till like 3am den went over to my granny's place see the baby rabbit with Mary also.. Bought a packet of noodles for Est.. Den send mary hm & chat downstairs again til like 5am.. Went back Dar hse ard & she bath liao watch 1hr of VCD while I slp.. After that, I thot I felt Dar kissin me & I responded.. *blush* The kiss melt into my heart.. Been so long since I felt that sweet.. I woke up smilin 2day.. Hehe.. Went to teach in the mornin & only 2hrs of slp but I'm like a fully recharged battery.. Later beta slp sia.. If not wil die, long day again.. Earn $$!!

Ended work at 10.50pm today.. Beat that.. Bloody hungry.. Dar called yday, say 2day supper aft her work at 12am.. Shld I wait? Mm.. Startin to gastric alr but I stil got a whole load of student's project to be done.. Sigh.. Beta do now.. Head is spinnin.. Workin like nuts.. And promise PS to meet her to sing k-box in august & Lorraine to drink at serangoon garden 2wks frm now.. LOL.. Roxxxxx..

Wrote tis on 10th June but forgot to paste it here.....

It's our 4th year anniversary today.. She has clean forgotten aboutit.. Or maybe she din even bother to remember.. sigh.. It's ok lah.. I'm used to it.. I bought her a Dior phone thingy but seemed like she dun like it.. Den I bought the *Xue Lang Hu* ticket, I wanna watch & I hope she'll be happy.. My birthday wish every year without fail is always to prayshe'd be healthy & kai xin.. Yin wei wo ai ta.. Whatever it is or how she treats me, the centre of my life is to hopethat she'd be happy..

But recently, she seemed to be easily aggitated by me.. She'd raise her voice & behave impatiently.. Ouch.. That hurts.. Loving someone is not a sin, but I feel that I should have nv been born, then her life will be happier & less troublesome.. I haf nv hated her, but smXs it really hurt to know too much.. Ithurts when I know that she dun love me anymore..I'd always console myself.. Ta kai xin.. Wo jiu kai xin le.. If there's any unfortunate event, let it fall on me.. If there's meant to be any heart-broken, let it be me.. Been 4years.. Will my dream ever come true? Seems to be further &further cos deep down inside, I know.. It's not me she love.. It's not me she cares about..

Suddenly remind me of the nite I saw shootin star for the 1st time in my life, that was in Perth.. Even thou I walk out of her house fumin, the moment I saw the star, Iprayed.. I wished for eternal happiness for her whether she's with me or not.. I wish for her gd health.. If there was any pain, let me take it, if any1 is to be heart-broken, let it be me, if des any sadness, I'm willin to take her place.. Tis wish came true? All the pain & heart-broken came knockin on my door, but I've nv regret I made tis wish.. Even if it sticks to me all my life.. Never will I regret as long as she's well.. Even if I'm alone again, I wont find any1 else in my life anymore.. I'll bury myself in my job all my life & my frenz ba.. Sometimes I laff at my own sillyness.. Laff at my.. I dun even knowhow to describe myself.. Juz gif her the best & I'll be thankful to ugod.. I mean it.. Thx..

Nv had such a frustratin day man.. Wat de F.. 1st my phone was left at my granny's place.. Feel so sian all day without it.. Went to teach Rebecca, den Hougang Mall to get my bbt.. Looked for a public phone to call ah yi & damn it.. I tried so many times also cant get through.. So go Ajunied teach lor.. Lucky he's at hm.. Den.. I tried callin ah yi again & damn it.. Stil cant get through.. Aft tt made my way down to Hougang buy my fav meat ball noodles, in the end, de auntie gave the wrong one for me.. -_-"" I ask my sis call my aunt & bloody hell, she call can go through, I call cant.. Sigh.. Nvm lah.. Now I'm hm save & sound.. So tired.. Only slp like 1hr yday..

Guess which is me? My Quan Jia Fu

My student ask "Ms Tang, why dun u haf a religion? Dun u find it weird without one?" It's de funny expression pple gif wen I tell them I'm free thinker that make it look weird.. LOL.. It's so contridictin how my mum is being abused by all my uncles & aunts.. They're buddist, christians.. But they nv thot of returnin my mum's $$ all tis years.. They rather use it on tour lah.. Change new HP for their kids lah.. Throw money on rubbish now & den lah.. Their money is hard earn, my parents' money isn't?!!

That's why I became so hardworkin outta sudden.. Other den bringin dar out, I dun spend anytg on myself.. I learn wat's the meanin of thrifty.. Smtimes I really hate to see my parents work so long hours.. Even when they're sick, they stil go open their shop.. They nv close their shop except for new year.. When I look at my mum 2day, I realised that she had age so much.. Feel like gifin her a hug so much but she'll say I'm crazy.. My mum almost teared juz now wen she told me she regret lendin so much money to her family, if not she could haf given me beta educations.. She was sayin lendin my uncle alone was near 500k.. Stil got 2uncles & 1aunt.. sigh.. Now stil dare to ask my mum to lend him money last wk.. Wat de..

Sigh.. Hafin religion doesnt make me a beta person.. Hafin religion doesnt mean I haf beta morales.. Hafin a religion doesnt mean I can cheer my fren up beta.. Hafin a religion doesnt mean I can help my fren in de correct way.. Havin a religion is for pple to haf smtg to turn to when they need security.. I respect them.. And I hope pple understand why I choose it tis way.. I can stil be der when my frens need me.. I can still be der to support my fren they wan me to.. I can still stand by my mum when she wan me to.. I can do alot of things when I wan to.. When I haf to go, I will go.. Des no way I can extend my stay on earth.. But while I'm stil around, I hope & will try to brin happiness to pple I care for.. That includes u.. Thx for readin.. And may happiness always stay with u.. >.<