Sigh.. Ling is still sad.. I dunno wat to do alr man.. Her nick will put tgs like *I died frm tat day*, *I'm worse den a dot*.. See alr I also damn sad.. Last wk when she msg me in MSN tellin me tat idiot broke up w her durin the trip, said she's seein sm1.. So she's 2timin lor.. Stupid.. I know how tat feel more den any1.. Wish I can take 1/2 the pain frm her.. Anyway, I'm used to the pain so doesnt matter more or less.. I told her I can fly over the nxt day if she wanna stay der & calm down but she said she wanna come back..

Why do pple haf to fall in love? It's so tirin when a heart is broken.. My heart is fragile, keep breakin & I keep puttin it back until I cant even see wat's the original look of my heart.. Haha.. Sigh.. I juz feel so depress today.. Depression again I tink.. Gotta cheer up soon.. Des things more in life den bein depress.. Like earnin money? Hehe.. >.<

Met dar yday at 8plus.. She yelled over the phone again.. Sigh.. Sad sad.. We met at BK, den had diner der with her mum.. Was suppose to be goin Zhen Fa Huo Hai Xian one, but her mum change her mind.. After diner, we went NTUC shop with her mummy.. Mm.. Shop until 9.30pm liao.. Gone case, no more movie.. *frowns* Nvm lah.. As long as she's by my side, wherever we go, whatever we do, it's ok with me.. Dar happy = FeLFeL happy.. After that she drove in to patrol station buy CD only to realise tt her mum alr bought it earlier.. Haha.. Hilarious hor..

The day b4 she actually ask me go eat prata, den my sis came alone.. She so cute went to pick my sis up stil bluff me say she's near the office.. So naughty.. She's so sweet again outta sudden.. We havent sit & tok den laff laff laff like tis for so so so long.. Juz like those days in Perth.. Miss those days back den..

I'm workin my ass off like mad.. Takin more & more students.. Feel so damn tired at the end of each day.. But I gotta earn more.. Juz like wat I promised her in the letter.. I work hard to keep a dream alive.. A dream that might nv come true.. That is she'd come back to me one day.. I'll not let her suffer.. I'll save alot of money.. I juz wan her to be v happy whether she's w me or not.. Cos I'll be sad if she's sad.. I'm silly.. I'm stupid.. But I'm juz a simple person that loves her deeply.. That wanna protect her frm all harm.. The person that wont gif her any headache again..

Competin with the old me every day, tryin to be a beta person each day.. All these yrs, I stil cant slp by myself.. Only when she's beside me am I able to slp early.. To slp tight.. And not jump up in shock.. Doesnt matter to any1 anyway.. Was tinkin 2day.. Shld I get another insurance & put in juz Dar, Ju & Est name? I mean wont be a big sum but.. At least it's juz a token of appreciation frm me.. To let them knw I love them & hope they'll always rem me if smtg do happen & I'm gone 4ever.. If des a nxt life, I hope they're stil the pple I've in my life.. Even if I gotta go through the same tg again, I stil wanna meet dar.. And be the same FeLFeL to make her happy, to be by her side whenever she needs me.. To be eternally hers.. Or mayb god wan her not to love her again.. I stil wanna be by her side.. Love her & care for her.. Make her smile & drive all her sadness away..

Mm.. I'm stil awake.. Was readin my past blog postin.. So funny esp the days in Vancouver.. Went for an interview with a P1 student yday & is successful.. Believe it? P1.. Mm.. He's a Eurasian boy, but haf difficulty recognisin words.. Gotta be extra patient.. Was smsin a fren 2day & reflectin back my past.. 3yrs ago, I was stil v slack.. So easily contented w a 1.2k pay.. 2day.. I've 15students, 3yrs ago.. How many? 5-6? Haha.. I'm takin lesser $ frm sm parents if I knw they're poor.. Many pple tink it's juz a job to get easy cash.. To me, it's more den juz a job.. >.<

Workin day & nite & off only on sat aft 6pm & sun at 4pm.. I hope I can take up 1more student if possible.. Anyway, I only go out at nite aft work or wkends evenin.. Despite all the hard work, pay day is always the best.. God is pretty fair, put in triple effort, pay also come in triple or even more at times.. Hehe.. But when their results turn out well, it felt real gd, cos I din fail my duty as their teacher..

Ah po bday yday, ordered crab frm Mary jie.. Wah.. Her dad sell de freshest crab man.. Gonna get frm Mary nxt time & cook.. Gave sm to Dar, she like it too.. Say my aunt cook v nice pepper crab.. I'll die w/out seafood other den fishes.. -_-"" *Sweat* I'll still puke when I smell fishes near me esp steamed ones.. YUCKS..

Bought C.D for 4th yr anniversary & 2Xue Lang Hu ticket also cos I wanna make her day beta at work.. Been waitin for it to come to sg for so long.. Dun like Sly but I like tis song alot.. Sing out my feelins.. LOL..

所以 - SyLvesTer Sim

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想到了第一次见到你 你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到我自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你 感觉我并没那么开心
因为我发现自己和你的距离
这是爱情还是你太美丽 我像是着了迷只渴望能靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里 因为我只想要你高兴
我知道我会辛苦也会难过 但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里
我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜 所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手 我眼泪不停的流
我只好默默退后 我什么都没说静静忍着痛