After celebratin my ah gong bday yday, we went out 4coffee w Ju, Sam & Dar last nite til 3am.. My sis fren was der too.. Wonder if they got a shock tt her sis is les.. Sam is obsess by d waitress in Happy Daze.. Tt's y we'r like der every Sat nite.. Almost went down mm cos her fren ask her to.. But I told her des not much fun on a Sat nite.. But I miss mm @times.. D music esp.. Haven't been der 4a while..

Woke up at 12pm 2day, had only 5hrs of slp sia.. Den immediately rush 2tuition.. Juz got back at 6pm.. Damn tired man.. My back hurts.. Tummy pain also.. Eyes tired but dun feel like slpin.. Later wanna bound after I eat.. Gotta go gym aft my student exam nxt wk.. So tired easily & lazy tis days..

Sam havin problem in school with sm uneducation bitch who wans 2 one on one.. Sigh.. Told sam not 2bother w tis kinda ungrateful bitch rite frm d start.. D 1st X I set my eyes on her, I hate her like fuck.. Des a limit to pple's patience.. If she insist on fightin.. She gotta bear d consequences herself.. Sam mayb soft hearted but I wont allow her 2b bullied by a brainless, ugly, not even a bimbo kinda gal..

Dar bought me chou dou fu frm Geylang.. So surprising.. But hor.. Taiwan one taste beta.. Smells much worse also.. Singapore one is like only 50% s nice s theirs.. Shld try HK one if I got a chance.. LOL.. Watched *Something's gotta give* yday.. Hilarious ah.. Got paris scene.. My heart skipped a beat.. LOL

Aft tuition, I went down2 Sim Lim Square w Sam 2help Rebecca buy PC.. Cos I on d way 2town 2look 4a car model.. Aft buyin d PC, went down 2bugis instead cos alr 8pm.. Sian.. Frm d start comb 2d N but cant find.. My knee hurts cos I fell down @hm in d noon.. Gt more painful wen I came hm, it turned purple.. Wil try another pl on Sat, no off at nite liao.. Den I bought Dar dumplin cos she say she wanna eat abt 3days ago.. In d N, she nv even come downstairs cos she playin mahjong, so I hang it by her door.. Sux.. Feel so bo liao..

Juz read a blog tt changed my whole mood.. 2make an impulsive decision is easy.. 2restore it is d difficult part.. Anita had inspired me alot in whichever way.. She fought hard in life & nt give up til d v.last sec.. In life, wat's at the end is nt d cruicial part, it's the process.. D ups.. And d downs..

I bought darLin w me 2my fren's, Xiuyun's wedding.. We were damn late cos Orchard jam all d way til Suntec so dar drive til go nuts kind.. LOL.. Dar say I look so cute in my long sleeves yday.. So tight sm more.. Aft diner I came out.. Wah kao.. Den I gotta knw tt d stars who attended d MTV asia award stayed in Fullerton.. So we waited cos dar wanna c F4.. We took pic w ~blue~.. Den I was tellin my fren if ah-mei walk past, I'll faint.. Suddenly sm1 walk past us & say *hello* *hello*.. Wah.. It was ah-mei sia.. My gosh.. So lucky I went 4d weddin den can see ah-mei.. Mm.. Best bday present liao!! Hehe..
Aft tt, my eye was bloodshot red.. Couldnt open my eyes at all.. Eye infection.. Had 2wash my eyes w d medicine.. Kao.. Like addin salt 2wound kinda feelin.. So dar send me 2her place & I slp til 4pm..

Went Marina South 4my bday diner w Dar, Est, Ju & Sam.. Sam was late so we were late 2pick my sis up @Marina.. 1hr sia.. LOL.. Cant rem wat we eat but mostly seafood which was so shiok.. My sis & dar finally got along well.. It ws like a dream tt they'll actually sit 2gether 2eat & laff, joke & all.. They used 2dislike each other so much.. My sis merely told me, s long s she dun hurt me again, she can accept her..

Aft diner, I felt like a kid.. Told myself inside aft 1whole wk of cravin 4bowlin, I can do it on my bday.. Wat a perfect bday sia.. But b4 tt went mm a while, til 1am.. Thot finally can play liao den dar drove her fren hm.. Took like 2hrs.. Her fren dun even knw hw 2go hm which really piss every1 off.. Sigh.. In d end, bowlin alley was closed.. Sian.. My heart dropped.. Felt smtg in my throat & heart's heavy.. Hate disappointment.. Was close 2a perfect day, yet smtg like tt happened.. Stil feelin abit sad.. I hate disapointment.. I hate disapointment.. I hate disapointment.. It sux.. Yet it kept happenin.. But human shldnt b 2greedy.. @least I was happy thou it aint perfect yeah?

Zouk.. I actually hate d place.. 2much bad memories der.. I cried outside @d benches, inside d toilet, felt d stab wenever I go der.. Sigh.. Yet ironically, I'm going der 2nite.. Dar likes d place wat.. So..

Juz came back frm supper w darLing.. She opened my wallet while I tried 2snatch it back.. Thot *DIE!! She'll sure flare up if she sees wat's in it*.. She actually saw d neoprint I took w Syl in it.. But she nv angry.. Phew.. Juz told me 2keep it properly if not will sure spoil.. Tt was so surprise.. Geez.. Anyway, meetin her 2mrw mornin.. Going Tiong Baru 2run an errand 4her mum den I go tuition while she get my bday gift.. Hehe.. My sis got me d Anita concert CD.. Dar will buy me d latest CD of Anita & concert VCD..

Tis yr bday gift is like all I want one.. She suggest we go KL 4d wkend wor but have 2see how kind.. Dar.. U can get me Anita CD 4present.. Prices is nv an option.. It's whether I like it or nt rite? U can buy a gold plated toilet bowl cover.. It's expensive but I wont like it.. So wat's the point yeah? Dun waste $ k.. It's imp.. Cos sm pple cant afford 2eat.. I rather u donate 2charity where d $ is in gd hands..

Sigh.. Coffee.. Dunno y.. I rather or I've always like 2stay hm.. Drink coffee waste $$ & put on weight.. Haha.. Anyway, going 4coffee w her nw.. Sigh.. Juz had a fight & she can't stand me lately cos I dun really wanna go out.. She juz dun understand..

But @times she's sweet.. I knw my temper is bad & I'm goin through depression.. I cry 4no reason & is irritated by little tgs.. I can hardly hear or sink in wat others is sayin.. Like gettin frm bad 2worse.. I dun1 2eat those anti-depression medicine again.. I always feel so tired aft eattin them.. I believe I can manage it myself.. Gimme more patience ok?

Wat shld I write 2day.. LOL.. Felt disappointed again.. Din go JB but went dentist with dar.. Den thot can spend whole day 2gether.. But her gd fren & her wan coffee.. Sigh.. I'm like ok, nvm, thou I hate it wen pple disrupt ESP my movie plan.. I dunno y.. Say so many times but it nv seems 2sink in any1's head.. Doesn't matter.. Den suddenly her dad call ask her collect car & nite time diner.. Sigh.. Der goes my whole fuckin day.. My only off day in d wk cos student havin yuan xiao diner too.. Sian.. I actually dun like 2go out at nite tis days cos I felt tt a day starts in the mornin.. Y do tgs at nite wen it's suppose 2b relaxed at my cosy arm chair.. 2mrw gotta work leh.. Unless like it's Fri cos Sat no work..

Sam Sam ask me why I always put chinese songs & not english(d very 1st song she help me put one).. Mm.. I was tinkin also.. Y shld I copy others & put English song mah? It's my own diary leh.. I put it cos I like it tt's y.. Y shld I do wat others like ah? Esp the song.. I put songs tt best describe my mood @tt period of time.. Tis song *Bao Jing Yan Qian Ren*.. Tink so true kind in life, it toks abt love too.. If u can understand cantonese.. U'll understand my feelins at tis moment.. I gonna gunbound again.. Wonder wen will I reach the blue dragon stage.. Not askin for dragon, so far only 1person acheive it man.. I wanna buy an *angel protection clothes* also.. Work harder since I so bloody bo liao at hm..

Couldn't slp all nite.. Bad flu.. Can't breathe & kept sneezin.. Nobody even asked.. LOL.. Nvm lah.. Later need 2teach.. Will juz 4get abt everytg & get on.. Life is like tt..

Finally I knw hw it feels 2b waitin4 sm1 dwnstairs 2surprise her & she's nt hm, best wen HP is nt even on.. Retribution ah.. I've always believed in tt.. I need 2apologise 2 sm1 who I disappointed long time ago.. I really hope u'r takin care of yrself.. It's ok if u tinks my apologies or concern are fake.. But I truely hope u'r leadin yr life well.. Goin 4tuition.. Might juz go JB on Thurs alone, so sian in sg..

I'm depress.. Notg else.. Juz depress.. I'm tryin hard to trust but smtimes it's juz so hard.. Sian.. Juz gonna watch Anita VCD & gunbound a while b4 I slp.. Can't b bothered smXs.. Really tired.. Decided to load tis song.. Abit old but I tear each time I listen to it..